For Now, We'll Just stay Like This, Another Form of Forever

No other moment can be more terrible, when you are able to foresee, the ending of it. When it is at the last moments to its end, when you are doing nothing to stop it, and when there is simply nothing you can do to stop it, that's the real grief. At that time, I don't know whether I regret that it was about to end or I regret that  it has even started. And then now I regret for having any regrets. 

I have started to recognize there are more meanings in life than what I have thought. Changes do occur as you mature. I have once rejected any aspect of it to happen, but now it has simply become a new passion in life. How among people, you have different ranks for them in your heart. Whilst I had always despised to have that topmost reserved seat, and even had been disgusted for myself to sit in any other people's, now all of these are abandoned. Simply and suddenly, the day has come when I suddenly realize that seat becomes the driving force for the start of every day and an addiction to smile. 

You're the one. Are you the one? Or you might not be the only one, but you would still be the first one. You might not last, but you still might last. Anyhow, it is  your choice, of how you want to stay, of how long. And yet, there's still many more you'll bring to me. There's much more you'll need to tolerate of me. There's much more stubbornness you might need to dissolve. There's much more frustration you'll have to endure. Cause that seat I have, is probably the worst compared to other people's seats. Maybe one day you'll let go, of whatever you have been trying to hold on.  Then that day would probably be of the same extent of the moment we had before. Except that I just wish, when that day comes, I won't have anything to regret anymore. 

Now I understand why those people in each other's seats talk about forever. It had once sound impossibly dumb to me. However, now I know, it's just hoping for the best. All I can hope now, is the best too. Moreover, if it has to end, it should end in the best. And when I talk about the best, it does not mean what you've said to me. It means the other way, the reverse. Then maybe forever will  take seed and grow, when we both hope the best for each other.